“So what is up with the whole cigarette, smoking thing?”

I’ll be honest because this is a safe space, I flipping love cigarettes - that nicotine high is unmatched. This may come as a surprise but; smoking is unhealthy and not just unhealthy but deadly.

But I love a good fag. Damn.

It’s been the only thing on my mind, the warm hug, loosening tension with every breath, the calm. But no, we’re being good and you’re especially not supposed to smoke on your medication.

Time to put my reaching hands to a paintbrush and just distract. And distract. And distract, until my thoughts fade and the cravings go.

But damn, I do love a good fag.